Fill your paper with the breathings of your heart. ~William Wordsworth

Ok so I don't think i've written anything in the SPN Fandom in like FOREVER, even longer since I wrote J2, but it is the ever lovely big_heart_june 's birthday and she requested fic from the Black Cartel verse, and I have never been able to say no to Juney. So here it is I really hope you like it Juney bug. Be warned it is pwp, lots of porn, little plot. Set in the lovely dreamersdare BC verse, it makes far far more sense if you have read that, and if you haven't you really should. Featuring a very dark and quite disturbed Jared and a very mixed up self hating Jensen.

Ok onto the fic

Title Total Accountability
Rating NC-17
Pairing J2, Jared/Jensen, RPS
Notes A huge thanks to the lovely veritas_st for the hand holding, to gwenknight for making me feel better about my porn wiritng skills and a huge, huge, HUGE thanks to the lovely dreamersdare for letting me borrow her verse, play with her pretty boys, letting me steal her Porn fu and basically helping make the porny scenes make sense, stay in character and not totally suck :)
Disclaimer Nothing is mine, I just like the pretty.
Warnings Dark! Jared, Mixed up Jensen, D/s relationship.
Summary “You should know by now my sweet, sweet whore, that there is no peace for either of us as long as you keep fighting me.”

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Still not done a review for this episode even though I loved it with the power of a thousand suns, but all I can say about it right now is

big_heart_june was right!!!!

Juney you said keep the faith, you kept squeeing and loving and making me love alongside you and I hoped I would get MY show back and I did!!!!!

HUGS SHOW

Having a lovely time in London with veritas_st. So far we have hit Oxford st for some shopping, Covent Garden for lunch and now we are at the hotel getting ready for Legally Blonde. Tomorrow think we are hitting Regents Park methinks. Although I am now eternally sad that big_heart_june is not with us :( you got our hopes up juney bug :p

What is everyone up to this weekend?

And also stolen from the always wonderful tabularassa comment on this entry, and I will tell you why you're awesome, what song I associate with you, and a favorite memory of us. 

Day Two is for my lovely big_heart_june her love for the Supernatural fandom always makes me happy, you love our boys so much it makes me want to *schnoogle you forever*, many thanks to dreamersdare for letting me use her Black Cartel universe.

It is not much sweetie but it is Black Cartel so yay (Also I betad Laura's next BC fic so that should be up soon) :D

Title :Blind Obedience
Fandom : SPNRPS AU
Pairing : Jared/Jensen from Black Cartel
Rating : NC 17
Summary Jensen vaguely remembered being afraid of the dark as a child but now he welcomed it
Present for : big_heart_june for her overwhelming awesome :)

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I'm back............ did you miss me :P

Thanks to everyone who sent me well wishes, especially big_heart_june for the lovely v gift and the amazingly awesome autumn_lilacs who dedicated this fic to me. It is an apocalyptic story, which as usual surpasses brilliance. It is dark, but wonderfully written and full of some of the most amazingly descriptive imagery. It as usual blows me away. I'm telling you, this girl should be writing show!!!! if she did we wouldn't complain as much. Her characterisations of Dean and Sam are amazing and she manages to create a multitude of different female characters that kick ass just as well as the T-shirt says they should. Go Read now!!! you won't regret it trust me

I saw this on one of batmanboxers recent posts and it made sense to me, they plan on posting positive things through April. The last few months have been a nightmare for me, so I plan on doing the same, as I view April as a new beginning.

So each day I plan on posting what has made me happy.

Todays is easy :-

New SPN ep is on and according to autumn_lilacs it is epic.
I have wonderfully pretty red nail polish on.
My puppy only chewed through one pair of my shoes today.
My hubby dropped a random kiss on my head accompnied with an "I love you"
I was out of my bed for 2 hours today :)

Stay tuned for tomorrows update.

Stole this from autumn_lilacs who is made of awesome (Don't believe me? see the tag)

Comment here and I will tell you why I like/love you.

Even if we don't talk much, heck even if we have NEVER spoken, I want EVERYONE to participate. If you want to share the love and do the same at your journal, go ahead. You're under no obligation to carry it on if you comment here.

Go on everyone needs more love in their life.